Scenes from the Upcoming TWILIGHT movie!

OMG!! Entertainment Tonight has an exclusive look at the scenes shot for TWILIGHT. (this is a great example of how they are having to make some adjustments in order for the book to translate well onscreen) IT IS SO AWESOME THOUGH!!! I cannot wait until December :)
Click on the link below to watch the video!
http://www.etonline.com/news/2008/04/60435/index.html

Party!

Well my Pampered Chef party went very well! I had a great turnout & the food was awesome! For those of you that could not attend, I did take some pics of the food & such. I do hope that for whatever I have next that I will see some of you :) enjoy!
(the cake was Chocolate ganache with chocolate cake & chocolate mousse on the bottom layer - the top portion was a strawberry cake! YUMMY!)

Complete little circle of addicts :)

My sister finished the series. 3 books = 4 days. Yep she is done, she is hooked. Possibly a little agitated that I got her addicted to something that we will have to wait 4 months to have the end to... :) now I won't suffer alone. Marcus has also finished the series 3 books = 1 week. He is also now addicted.... yep misery does love it some company. I am ecstatic that they both enjoyed them so much. I am surprised Nina was able to finish what with me constantly checking in with her to see what part in the books she was at. It was so much fun though. I rarely "share" my books with people, in the sense that I love many books but I don't always push others to read them. This series though was a bit different - the love story took my breath, my imagination, my heart all in one full swoop. I found myself like all the other Twilighters, in love with the characters. I also found that my own husband has "Edward" qualities. I love that. The fact that I had never noticed them before made me a bit ashamed, but I also love that I am aware of them now. He also has a great deal of "Jacob" qualities. I find that I am luckier than Bella in that I get to have both worlds. She had to make a choice. Though to be honest considering her connection to her true love there never was one to make. It just was as it is supposed to be. Anyway, my circle of addicts is fairly complete - I have just got to get my mom to read the series ;) - I hope that any of you out there pick them up. Give them a try, open your mind & heart & enjoy sure to be classic love story....

pins & needles

OMG! My sister has finally purchased book 1 in the TWILIGHT series... thank goodness I need someone else to talk to about the book (don't get me wrong Marcus has enjoyed the series, but I have become such a fanatic/nerd that it blows him away - plus he likes to tease me about how the series may end *YECH*) Nina is so far enjoying them & I must say that I AM THRILLED!!! I so need a girl to really dissect these with :) I know I am crazy - if only she could read faster - I am on pins & needles until she gets through with book 1 then I will be the same way when she gets to books 2 & 3! :):):):):)

Addictions

I am always amazed by music. How it captures a moment, how it defines a feeling, how it can incapacitate the ability to breathe at times & then how it allows me to feel happier than I imagined or how it allows me to indulge in a good cry. Lately I have been reading & re-reading a book series. Those of you that know how deep I get into a story will probably just roll your eyes & hopefully smile at my idiosyncracies, but for those of you unfamiliar with my addictive tactics... well understand that my heart, my mind, my soul puts so much of itself into things I hear or read or write. It can be very overwhelming for me & those close in my circle. Lately due to this series I am reading, music has flown at me from every direction. Songs that before I loved just for their lyrics or melody now are connected to the series & it is my own personal movie soundtrack for my imagination. Anyway all of this babbling is because this post is going to involve lyrics. (BTW: for those who don't know I LOVE alternative music:) )The 2 songs that are just on constant repeat in my mind are listed below - I also added them to my music player at the bottom of my blog if you want to hear them. But with these songs, the words & the melody can exist together or alone.... anyway - my addictions are strong in this sense so bear with my madness :)

#1 Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay its okay its okay
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

#2 Boys Like Girls: Hero/Heroine (THIS IS BEST IF YOU CAN HEAR THE ACOUSTIC VERSION)
It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile in a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you need to get in line
But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why You'd even try
But I won't lie
You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart all locked down
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded
And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

Spasms of thought...

Hello! Well it is April 1, 2008. How insane is it that we are truly now moving through Spring? I just cannot get over how fast this year seems to be passing by.

I am loving that the weather is more spring like just about every day (I say just about due to the small cold snap yesterday & rainy outcast today -though Mother Nature's little ditty "April Showers..." might just be on the money sometimes)

We have been oh so lazy lately. Last weekend was crazy lazy days! I mean holy crow I am not sure if we moved at all! The laziness was what we needed though. We read all day Saturday & napped most of the evening. But a quick trip down to Brent for lunch with Mom, Dad, Eric, Mindy & Hannah was most definitely the only time we left the house on Sunday :)

This weekend I am having a Pampered Chef party (to any of you that read this know that you are all invited so swing on by) Marcus has seen right through my Pampered Chef "ruse". It is merely an excuse for a Pretty Party he says.... yep he says right! LOL. Any reason for cake, goodies & good friends is reason enough for me!!! He of course is content in knowing that there will be oodles of food so he is fine with me having one :) Hopefully I will see some of you there, those of you that cannot attend I will post pics when it is over!

Re-direction...

I hope everyone had a very Happy Easter holiday. We headed down to the big city of Camden & had a very nice & relaxing time.
Most of you probably don't know that recently I have really had some odd bouts of depressive moods. My emotions have been a whirlwind for quite some time (about 7 months actually) but the worst came most recently. I am the poster child for putting on a good front no matter what my mood & really when I appear to be in a bad mood it typically is more derivative of something deeper. You see when I state in my ABOUT ME that I am sensitive to my surroundings - it is not an exaggeration. Marcus calls me his "tortured artist" and at times I really empathize with the concept. We all have down days & have to push through but it seemed lately mine were rolling on top of me & never letting me breathe much less have the ability to 'push' back. This past week was very trying for me. I felt like I was really heading in the wrong direction with my life, that somewhere a choice I had made had somehow made all choices obsolete. The paths were destroyed - no longer could I venture into something different. It took a day to look at the sky & barren pecan trees for me to realize how ignorant I had become. You see I have so many interests, so many areas I want to explore that sometimes those options had swamped me. Then I would wake up go to work & feel pigeon holed - never would I be seen as someone other than what I do at work. How silly; I had let the outside world change my own personal view of myself. Now granted a day in the sun does not make for continuous sunny days but it did help lift a good portion of my mood & made me a bit more positive about my current self reflections. I lay on a hammock in the back yard of my parents house and found myself crying silently to myself. Crying not for being sad but angry, guilty tears. I felt angry that I had let myself become this sad pity party & guilty because my pity party is for something that is seemingly petty compared to issues other people have. Then as my mother called across the yard and asked if I was okay it was like a movie show in front of me. I was honestly flooded with memories. I saw myself in a wheelbarrow beneath my old bedroom window. I sat on a quilt with a book & sketchpad in my lap. The air was so hot, but the cool metal that touched my skin helped to ward it off. I could hear my brother & his friend heading out on four wheelers to fish in the pond. I saw me & my best friend on a rainy day smashing bottles off the back porch (we got in trouble for that one). I saw Marcus & I sitting in the swing under the pecan tree, so young & so full of love. Then the sounds of splashes in the pool, my parents dancing in the kitchen. Then just as swiftly I remembered clover, lush green clover all underneath the fruit trees, I could see my mom on the front porch hollering out to see if I was okay. The memories were plentiful & I swear in some I smiled at myself. In the present I had stopped swaying on the hammock & then I was smiling. It felt so good to really smile. I just almost felt washed over with relaxation. My stomach wasn't turning & the tears had dried up. I know that being a "tortured artist" :) that my path will not be smooth & clear but realizing that there is always a reason to be happy, I am alive, I have family, friends, God gave me so many talents, too many I think sometimes. Here I am just letting them waste, blaming it on "not having time". POSH! He gave me these talents who am I to let them sit & waste away. Those talents are what make me whole, they are my escape, my sanity, my insanity, my happiness & my sadness. So again I have to look at myself and chastise the human emotion of self-pity & move forward. So look out who knows what you may see me putting in a blog next. Lets just hope that I don't go crazy trying to figure out which direction to go. I am most glad though to realize my directions never left in the first place, I had merely put up a roadblock.

Nicknames

Seems everyone has posted their nicknames & since I have a couple myself I feel that I could share them with the world:
1. CoCo - this particular nickname popped up in the 3rd grade when Stacie, Brandi, Weslyn & I created our own Fantastic Four "girls club" and gave each other code nicknames. Yes code, we thought they would be difficult to decipher - oh the mind of a 3rd grader. (this is also used with the nieces & nephews sometimes: Aunt CoCo)
2. Goose - this particular nickname goes back farther than my own memory. My oldest brother Jeremy christened me this one & it has always stuck. He is really the only one who uses it & due to that it has always been quite special to me. I idolized him as a little girl & the fact that he bestowed my very own nickname was very special & important growing up.
3. Princess - for obvious reasons - why would you not call someone what they are?
4. Snookie - reserved only for Marcus (he in turn is my Snookie Bear) yes I know...
5. Silly Girl - my mom used to use this when I was little, I don't know if even she would remember it. I always liked it though.
6. Marcus' Girlfriend - for quite sometime throughout our dating period in high school to Marcus' family I did not have a name I was merely Marcus' Girlfriend. Yep - there are too many cousins in his family & well they just dubbed me that rather than using my real name.

Those are really the most prominent that ever stuck. I guess that nicknames are just a force of habit, we give them to my nieces and nephews: Colton, Coy, & Jon are Knuckleheads #1, #2, & #3. Anna was very upset to NOT be considered a knucklehead so she was given Knucklehead #4. Jessica is Jess, Christian is ITTY BITTY BOY, Hannah (Mindy's little girl) is Hannah Montana. It just sort of happens the words come out & boom you are christened that new spontaneous nickname. To me it is most amusing as to why we have them over what they are.